218 Don’t Leave Regret in Heart
I
Having believed in God for many years I still spend my days in vagueness
And follow foolishly with my face toward the sky
I even measure You by notions and philosophies of life
And treat You as an ordinary man
I do not know Your disposition but say that I am satisfying You
Treating You carelessly and half-heartedly
How should I retrieve this irredeemable blasphemy
All I express are greed and extravagance
The shattering of hopes and expectations reveals man’s contemptible
Servile, and shameless ugly self
wish to be faithful to You and perform my duty properly
But why do I still want to use You to achieve my purpose
And still fool, deceive, and cheat You I am simply doing evil
My misunderstandings of You even become more and more serious
Only for escaping the future disasters am I faithful to You
My notions, misunderstandings, and doubts have broken Your heart
II
It is Satan that has blinded my eyes
I cannot see clearly Your kindness and beauty
Disclosed by Your word I feel as if awakening from a dream
Deeply knowing that I am grievously sinful
I am heartbroken with regret now for my years of disobedience
How could I still make You worried about me
Your selfless dedication and expending have won mankind’s trust
I make a resolution inwardly to pursue to know You
Your last admonition gives me a chance to repent
Whether I can be saved depends on this one stroke
O God, I have understood the meaning of living for You
I have stepped into the true human life
Your last admonition gives me a chance to repent
Whether I can be saved depends on this one stroke
O God, I have understood the meaning of living for You
I have stepped into the true human life