220 I Have an Ache Deep in My Heart
I
I have an ache deep in my heart
Every time I think of it I feel as if a knife were wringing my heart
I can never forget all my life this lesson written in blood
I hate myself heartbroken with deep repent and sorrow
Seeing God’s face but not knowing Him
Saying things different from what I thought
Saying that I would love God but staying away from Him in my heart
Saying that God was God but still treating Him as a man
II
Saying that God was righteous but often complaining
Saying that God was faithful but suspecting His
Saying that I would satisfy God but still rebelling against God
Crooked and crafty and always cheating God
Saying that I would testify about God but exalting myself
Saying that I would be faithful to God but sparing some effort
Self-important and self-right and never submitting to anyone
So corrupt when can I become a man
III
God’s heart is earnest and sincere toward man
His kind heart is sorrowful for man
Anxiously expecting man to be transformed
But I fall far short of God’s requirement
The time has come and I am anxious in my heart
If I am still not for God I will have no opportunity
Even if I love God but God does not approve
Fulfilling my duty I will be comforted in my heart
