251 I Should Wake Up
I
I express so many corruptions before You which is extremely loathed by You
I do not know what are the truth and the life yet I’m still pleased with myself
I understand some doctrines and equip myself with some letters but I’m not transformed in my disposition
And I have done a lot of ridiculous things
Ah I the numb person I the pitiable person
Always fail to give You comfort
You guide and encourage me by all means but I cannot understand Your will
Ah I the ignorant person I the arrogant person
Never know to obey You
I am mean and selfish and do not know to care for You it brings You so many sorrows
II
Everyone is performing his duty joyfully and they have no trace of worry
Yet I can never break free from bondage but live in negativity
Thinking about Your words and checking myself I feel even more anxious in my heart
I am a person who does not practice the truth
Ah for a most deeply corrupted person it is not easy to gain life
I should not hold on to my own opinion anymore
Your word reveals my substance thoroughly I should not be so obsessed anymore
Ah Your heart is waiting Your heart is expecting
I should requite You by reality
Let You not be grieved or be concerned let You see my transformation