I

I still believe in God in vagueness after so many years

following foolishly up to today

I even measured God by notions and philosophies of life

treating Him as an ordinary man

I did not know God’s disposition but promised to satisfy Him

treating Him carelessly and half-heartedly

How should I retrieve this irredeemable blasphemy

All I expressed were greed and extravagance

The shattering of hopes reveals man as contemptible

Servile and shameless, I was so ugly

I was willing to perform my duty faithfully for God

But why did I still want to use Him to achieve my own purpose

I was simply doing evil that I fooled and deceived God

My misunderstandings of Him even became more and more serious

Only for escaping the future disasters was I faithful to God

My notions, misunderstandings, and doubts have broken God’s heart

II

Satan has blinded my eyes so I can’t see clearly God’s kindness and beauty

The disclosure of God’s word has woken me up

I deeply know that I am grievously sinful

I am heartbroken with regret now for my years of disobedience

How could I still make God worried about me

God’s selfless dedication and effort have won mankind’s trust

I make a resolution inwardly to pursue to know Him

God’s last admonition gives me a chance to repent

Whether I can be saved depends on it

O God, I have understood the meaning of living for You

I have stepped into the true human life

God’s last admonition gives me a chance to repent

Whether I can be saved depends on it

O God, I have understood the meaning of living for You

I have stepped into the true human life