99 O God I’m Really Unworthy for You to Love
I
So many sad tears I have shed for myself,
So many wrongs I have suffered for myself,
So many long roads I have walked for myself,
So many times I calculate gains, losses, and rewards,
And so many times I want to leave God,
But God’s love has been drawing my heart,
As cords of kindness and ties of love tightly draw my hands,
So I come out of my passive and backward state step by step.
It is the sharp two-edged sword that divides my evil soul,
And the water of life saturates my heart.
II
So many times I doubt, suspect, worry, and hesitate,
Failing to withstand Satan’s threats and temptations;
So many times I search, seek, and bustle about for fame, gain, and future,
Taking them to heart and stubbornly sticking to them.
O God! This is me! This is me!
I’m really unworthy for You to love and for You to save.
O God! May You again care for, grace, and keep me;
Otherwise I cannot take a single step.
O God! May You give me chastisement, judgment, and refining,
Driving me to go forward with all my strength.
