Question (4) What is the difference between testifying oneself and fellowship on one’s own real experiences? When I fellowship on my own real experiences, I unknowingly make others look up to me; what is the problem? What aspects of truth should I use to resolve this problem?
The answer is as follows: When you fellowship about your own genuine experience, will it make others look up to you as a consequence? Absolutely not. If your fellowship is insincere, if it always carries exaggeration and falsity, if you give false testimony that deceives others, it is easy to lead others to look up to you. But if your testimony is sincere, others will not look up to you. I’ll give you an example. When some people fellowship about their experiences, they testify, “That period was the most miserable I’ve ever felt. I strained with all my power to look to God and pray to Him, and finally, I got rid of those notions about the matter, I was victorious. Now I don’t even have such thoughts anymore. My husband wants to leave me for a new wife, and I don’t suffer his constraints at all.” Is this sincere? Isn’t this false testimony? Testifying that you don’t suffer any constraints at all, very well, and afterward crying in secret. What you say doesn’t conform with reality. When others hear it, they say, “You’re so much stronger than me. Why do I suffer constraints? Why do I still feel constrained though I’ve prayed?” Then, they look up to you, but what you’ve given is actually false testimony. How could it not make others look up to you? That’s what’s going on here. Anytime your testimony of yourself makes you sound too good, beyond normal, it can easily lead others to look up to you. That is truly testifying yourself. Anytime your testimony makes others look up to you, have blind faith in you, or adore you, you are testifying yourself. If people hear your fellowship of your experience and find it practical and objective, that is true testimony. The testimony of some makes others admire and adore them in amazement, with words such as, “You believe so well! You are truly spiritual! You have so much life, so much stature!” But isn’t this false testimony? Is he really so amazing? No, he is not, he is deceiving people. Anyone who describes himself in terms too good, in terms that go beyond normal, isn’t that good at all. He is in fact a liar. This is false testimony and deception, and any who engage in false testimony are testifying and exalting themselves. Speaking objectively about your own real, practical experiences will never make others look up to you as a consequence. Others will simply say you speak so practically, sincerely, and provide a path. For this, they will respect you, not look up to you. Any testimony that makes others look up to and adore the speaker is deceptive, false, and insincere. This is understandable, yes? When someone’s testimony doesn’t match his true behavior, is it not false testimony? Those who don’t know him, once they hear it, will adore him and look up to him, but those familiar with him will know the instant he opens his mouth that it’s false. They will be disgusted, think him nauseating, and say he is too thick-skinned. Who can tell whether a person’s testimony is true or false? Someone who understands the truth can tell when he hears it. He has experience, and he knows what it is to have normal humanity or express corruption. Also, if you ask those close to the speaker and see if they say it sounds genuine, or if they say he is this kind of person, you will be able to discern whether it is true or false. Ask those who know him to listen, and ask those who understand the truth to listen, and if they say it sounds genuine, then it is genuine testimony of his real experience. For someone who understands the truth, even if he doesn’t know the speaker, when he hears the testimony he is able to discern whether it is true or false. If you asked people to hear Paul’s testimony, most would adore him, but someone who understands the truth would realize many of Paul’s sayings seem unsuitable, or meaningless, or incorrect, and the results of such sayings are not good. Someone who understands the truth can see it, and only someone who understands the truth has this discernment. Fellowship about your own true experiences, speaking objectively, will not result in others looking up to you. If you feel that your fellowship always makes others do so, this means your fellowship is impractical and not objective. So, my question for you is, “Are you really that good? If you are that good, how well do you perform your duties? What results does your work achieve? If your work and duties achieve no effect, aren’t you lying when you describe yourself as so good? Isn’t it pretense?” Am I right or wrong about this? If a church leader describes himself as particularly spiritual, how do we verify that? We use the state of the life of his brothers and sisters in the church to verify it. He describes himself as good, so why are so many in the church doing badly? Why don’t they have a church life? Why doesn’t he lead them in it? His goodness is hypocrisy, false spirituality, and deception. If a housewife says she can manage a household well, but her children’s clothes are full of holes, if they look like beggars, isn’t her claim false? You must learn discernment. Don’t listen to the nonsense of others or believe whatever you hear. If someone claims to have much entry into life, or to be very spiritual, one look at his work and how he performs his duties will tell you if it’s true. If many problems in the church remain unresolved, isn’t his claim to be spiritual false? If you were truly spiritual, you would be considerate of God’s heart, wouldn’t you? If you are truly spiritual, why not guide your brothers and sisters to God? If you are truly spiritual, why don’t you provide your brothers and sisters with life? If you are truly spiritual, why don’t you solve practical problems in the church? Where are the realities of your spirituality? Isn’t this simply deception? Isn’t it simply disguise? My discernment is right, isn’t it? We know the tree by the fruit. This is how to discern this issue. I know exactly what you are from the stature of the people you lead. This is the most accurate way to discern this issue. Also, if you are speaking about your true experiences, why not talk about your experiences of failure? If you only talk about your experiences of the Holy Spirit’s work and being victorious, and are happy with letting others adore and falsely put their faith in you, where are your experiences of failure? Aren’t you still a member of corrupt mankind? If you spoke about your experiences of failure, wouldn’t people’s knowledge of you be genuine? Why only speak about your successes and your strengths? You always speak about how the Holy Spirit guided and enlightened you and how you practiced the truth, but have you never failed? You deliberately make others adore and look up to you, your intentions are crooked, and you merely want to testify and exalt yourself and deceive others. Is this correct to say? Why don’t you reveal the aspects in which you are ugliest, evilest, and resist God most? If someone speaks only about his positive aspects and deeds but says nothing about his embarrassments and failures, isn’t he giving false testimony? To do this is deceptive. It prevents others from treating you correctly or genuinely understanding you. It is somewhat misleading, for you have crooked intentions and ulterior motives. You should speak about yourself objectively, don’t speak only about your advantages and strong points, and don’t exaggerate. That is useless. Speaking about yourself objectively is best, because the goal you should achieve is letting others understand the real you, and for that you must tell the truth, be objective, and speak about both your failures and your successes. And it’s best if you speak more about your failures than your successes, which is more practical, because you must undergo failure several times, sometimes for years, before the time you ultimately experience a little success. Everyone fails more than they succeed, that is objectively true. Some people worry about sharing their genuine experiences because they fear others will look up to them, as if all they have actually experienced were victory or their real experiences were exceptionally good. But have you never experienced any failure at all? There is no corruption in you? Is your corruption so little that the moment you believed in God you began to be victorious, you were able to submit to God, be considerate of God’s will, and love God? Isn’t that deceptive? No such people exist. How much is the painstaking price God must pay to save a man? It’s impossible to achieve this goal in less than ten to twenty years. You say you fear your testimony of your experiences will make others look up to you? This is nothing but false spirituality and hypocrisy. It is a nonexistent problem. Everyone fails more than they succeed.