978 Seek the Truth to Obtain Dispositional Changes
1 Only by pursuing the truth can you obtain changes in your disposition: This is something you must understand, and understand thoroughly. If you do not have sufficient understanding of the truth, you will easily slip up and go astray. If you really possess the truth, the path you walk will naturally be the correct path. Without the truth, it is easy to do evil, and you will do it despite yourself. For example, if you had arrogance and conceit, you would find it impossible to keep from defying God; you would feel compelled to defy Him. You would not do it on purpose; you would do it under the domination of your arrogant and conceited nature. Your arrogance and conceit would make you look down on God and see Him as being of no account; they would cause you to exalt yourself, constantly put yourself on display, and, finally, sit in God’s place and bear testimony for yourself. In the end, you would turn your own ideas, your own thinking, and your own notions into truths to be worshiped. How much evil is done by people under the dominance of their arrogant and conceited nature!
2 To resolve their evil acts, people must first resolve the problem of their nature. Without a change in disposition, it would not be possible to bring a fundamental resolution to this problem. When you have some understanding of God, when you can see your own corruption and recognize the contemptibility and ugliness of arrogance and conceit, you will then feel disgusted, sickened, and distressed. You will be able to consciously do some things to satisfy God and, in doing this, will feel at ease. You will be able to consciously bear witness for God and, in doing this, will feel enjoyment. You will consciously unmask yourself, exposing your own ugliness, and by doing this, you will feel good internally and feel yourself in an improved state of mind. Therefore, the first step of seeking a change in your disposition is to seek to understand God’s word and to enter into the truth. Only by understanding the truth can you attain discernment; only with discernment can you understand things thoroughly; only by understanding things thoroughly can you forsake the flesh and, step by step, be on the right track with your belief in God.
Adapted from “Only by Pursuing the Truth Can You Obtain Changes in Your Disposition” in Records of Christ’s Talks