226 I Have Seen God’s Righteousness
1 Experiencing judgment before Christ’s seat, I suddenly awoke. When I was part of religion, too much of my faith in the Lord was impure. Though I gave up everything, and toiled many years for the Lord, I lacked true knowledge of the Lord, I was full of notions and imaginings. I thought that God was merciful and compassionate, that I deserved to receive grace from my faith in the Lord. For years, I followed the example of Paul, suffering and paying a price for the Lord. When I was imprisoned and suffered the utmost pain, I didn’t become a Judas. All was to earn the crown of glory and receive the blessings of the kingdom of heaven. Amid the revelations and judgment of God’s words, I prostrated myself upon the ground.
2 The judgment of God’s words reveals the corrupt nature of mankind. Although our sins are forgiven, our satanic nature is deeply ingrained. Though I work hard for the Lord, I often reveal my satanic disposition. I am arrogant, self-righteous, I lie, all I want is to distinguish myself. My prayers to God are nothing but deception, I have no fear of God. Doing minor good deeds is solely to be blessed, yet not practicing the truth. Expending and suffering hardship for God is to make a trade with God. How could I, so filthy and corrupt, be fit to live before God? Thanks be to God for not abandoning me; this truly is His love.
3 In the past, all that I said and did brimmed with satanic dispositions. Each day I prayed to God and confessed my sins, but I did not truly repent. It was God’s judgment that cleansed my corrupt disposition. I experienced God’s disposition that is not just loving, but that more so dispenses judgment. Undergoing God’s judgment made me see that God is holy and righteous, and it was the judgment of God that saved me from the influence of Satan. God determines people’s ends depending on whether or not they have the truth. God’s holiness and righteousness is so lovely, which deserves man’s praise. I shall perform my duty well and love and obey God forever.