181 Oh God, I Can’t Leave You
1 Without God’s word guiding me, I am without an anchor, like a drifting duckweed. Without God with me, I feel pain and emptiness. Through self-reflection, I see that I’ve believed in God for many years yet never pursued the truth. I believe in God only to ask for grace and blessings. I am always slipshod in my duty, without any loyalty at all. I am detested and hated by God, I’ve fallen into darkness and feel great pain. Pleading words cannot call God back to me. Without a God-fearing heart, I don’t deserve to live before God. I count God’s kindnesses and reflect on myself and feel so indebted to God.
2 Through judgment, I see clearly the truth of my corruption. Arrogant, self-righteous, crooked and deceitful, I even made a deal with God. I was slipshod in my duty and did not show consideration to God’s will. By clinging to my notions, a tragedy was born. After undergoing much refinement, I realized that God’s righteous disposition brooks no offense. My heart reveres Him, I loathe myself and truly repent. I see that God’s judgment is all love and salvation. I set my resolve to practice the truth and to do my duty to repay Him. I will sincerely love God, so I can regain His mercy and call Him back to me.