164 Through Adversity, My Love for God Is Strengthened
1 I was thrown into a prison of the demonic CCP, and saw all kinds of bloodstained instruments of torture. Confronted by the ferocious and fiendish faces of the police, I felt timid and weak. I did not know if I would be able to withstand the cruel torment and stand firm in my testimony. I was afraid my stature was too small, and that I would betray God and become a Judas. My heart called on God in earnest, asking Him to rescue me from Satan’s net. Despite Satan’s savage ferocity, God controls my fate. I found my faith in God when I understood the truth, and I no longer feared their cruel torment. Whether I lived or died, I would obey God’s arrangements, and I would bear resounding witness for God at the risk of losing my life.
2 The demonic CCP is ferocious and abominable; with carrot and stick, they tried to force me to betray God. When electricity shot through my whole body, I felt I would soon suffocate. When needles were stabbed into my fingers, the piercing pain made death seem preferable to life. In my pain, God’s words gave me faith and strength and the fortitude to face it all. I thought of how I had not sincerely loved God, and I was left with so many regrets. At that moment, I wished only to dedicate my heart to God, and if He accepted me, my heart would be relieved and at ease. No matter how the CCP tormented me, I would still love God and bear witness to Him. If there were a tomorrow for me, I would surely do my utmost to pursue the truth and love God more deeply.
3 The demons hurt me until my life hung by a thread, but God secretly protected me from serious harm. Adversity brought my heart closer to God. With God beside me, pain turned to sweetness. It was in dire straits that I saw God face-to-face and was purified and saved by Him. As I underwent the cruel tortures of the CCP, I saw Satan’s hideous countenance clearly. I came to distinguish between justice and evil, and, more than that, I saw that God alone is love, and came even more to hate the great red dragon, to whom I would die before submitting. I follow God with an iron will. The road to heaven is hard and rocky, filled with temptation and danger. I have God’s words to guide me, and wish always to lean close to Him, and that my love for Him never changes.