I’ve been negative so many times
and I cried from loss of my prestige.
When trials exposed me,
I was concerned only about prospects of my future,
and my grief overwhelmed me.
So many times I was stubborn, rebellious,
tried to run from God’s judgment;
my conscience was seared.
Many times I resolved to repent,
then did ill anyway, gave place to sin.
Oh God, Your words of judgment show my ugliness.
I clearly see my corruption.
There’s no place to hide from shame.
I thought I’d gone too far for You to save me,
but Your words dispelled misunderstanding.
At times I fell in Satan’s temptations,
but secretly You watched over and protected me.
When I harbored misconceptions, opposed You,
You always showed me mercy and patience.
You never remembered the times I transgressed;
You gave me a chance to repent.
Oh God, I’m insignificant and lowly,
yet You always care for me.
Am I worthy to be human if I can’t repay Your love?
Through Your judgment, trials, and discipline,
I can finally know Your love.
I suffer the pain of Your refinement,
yet my corruption is being cleansed.
When I obey You and practice truth,
I feel at ease and at peace.
Fearing You, rejecting evil,
to live by Your words is happiness.
Oh God, Your judgment is love.
It’s enabled me to attain Your great salvation.
I’ve experienced Your sincere love,
and I wish to love and obey You forever.