216 An Awakening Through Judgment
1 In all those years of belief in the Lord, I focused only on expounding the theories of the Bible. Never did I obey the words and commandments of the Lord. I worked hard, but it was only for status and rewards. I lived in sin, yet still hoped for my rapture into the kingdom of heaven after the arrival of the Lord. After experiencing the judgment of God’s words, I was awoken from my dreams. I see that I am ugly, contemptible, and so corrupt. I speak sound doctrine and flaunt myself everywhere. I decorate myself in doctrine to deceive others and myself. I do not live out the reality of God’s words, I have no human semblance. I walk the path of the Pharisees, yet still consider myself loyal. How fortunate that the judgment of God’s words has awoken me! I see how deeply corrupt I am and that I need God’s judgment and purification.
2 God’s judgment allows me to see clearly the truth of mankind’s corruption. I am full of notions and imaginings about God, I am liable to betray Him at any time. Without trials to reveal it, no one would see their nature clearly. Mankind is so deeply corrupted, and they will not be purified without undergoing judgment. God’s righteous disposition is entirely revealed within His judgment. God decides man’s end based on whether or not they possess the truth. No matter how much they suffer, unless they have gained the truth, then it means nothing. Only by experiencing judgment and gaining the truth can man have a human likeness. It is so meaningful for God to use judgment and chastisement to save man. What an honor it is to know God’s righteousness and holiness! It is God’s judgment that saves me and awakens my heart. I resolve to pursue the truth and live out reality to testify and glorify God.