204 The Awakening of a People-Pleaser
1 I used to be a people-pleaser who followed Satan’s philosophies for living, valuing peace and forbearance above all, never arguing with anyone. In all my dealings, I strove to protect my vanity, self-regard, and status. I knew what was right and wrong, but I wouldn’t say what I saw so clearly. If something didn’t involve me, then I gave up the principles and looked the other way. I protected myself, betraying my own conscience so as not to displease anyone. I resigned myself to adversity, living an ignoble life and losing my humanity. I had not the least character or dignity and was unfit to be called a human.
2 When I experienced the judgment of God’s words, I was finally jolted awake. Having understood the truth, I saw clearly the truth of mankind’s wickedness and corruption. I fell before God and felt extreme remorse in my heart. I hated how corrupt I was and that I’d lost my conscience and reason. I’d been a people-pleaser who acted without principle; truly, I’d been a hypocrite. I’d been slippery and deceitful and thought myself clever, and had ruined my own life. It was the judgment of God’s words that finally awakened my heart. I wish to be an honest person, and I wish to be cleansed by being judged. I wish to seek the truth in all things so that I can act with principle. I wish to cast off my deceitfulness, practice the truth, and live in the light. I wish to follow God’s way and practice fearing God and shunning evil. I’ll perform my duty faithfully and live out a true human likeness to glorify God.