192 Determined to Faithfully Satisfy God
1 I see the day God gains glory drawing near. Remembering the past, my heart feels such remorse. I was so rebellious in my association with God, that I’m left with unbearable memories. I hate myself for coming to my senses so late, I feel guilty for failing to repay God’s love. Nothing I did was after God’s heart; how then could I have peace and joy in my heart? God became flesh to work in the world, to live alongside man and share their suffering. It’s so meaningful for man to love God, I just hate myself for having no conscience or reason. I feel so indebted to God for failing to love Him sincerely.
2 I enjoy so much of God’s love, my heart yearns to soon repay God. But my nature rebels and I don’t practice the truth, I have missed many chances to be perfected. I’m left with nothing but remorse and regret, I detest and loathe myself even more. I see that I have no reality of the truth, and I am still so slipshod in the performance of my duty. My heart is anxious, I weep bitter tears, I feel deeply that I cannot face God. Through careful counting of God’s grace, I see how good and lovely God is. God pays such a high price to save me, so why can’t I repay His love? Though I haven’t completely cast off corruption, I will do my best to pursue the truth. On the last leg of the path, I wish to faithfully satisfy God.