220 I’d Hate to Go Back to My Old Ways and Cause God Pain
The day of God grows nearer day by day. As I have undergone the judgment of His words, has my life disposition changed? I must self-reflect in earnest, lest I go back to my old ways and cause God pain. God’s words are spoken with perfect clarity. How can I love God truly when I am filled with a satanic disposition? Without being judged, how can I achieve a change in disposition? Always harboring notions about God—I am so blind and foolish. Through judgment and trials, I experience God’s profound love. I cannot fail God’s kind intentions again. God has gone to great pains to express all His words for mankind. God’s will has been entirely revealed in His words. One who doesn’t read God’s words is just a beast without conscience, unworthy to eat and drink of God’s words or to live before Him. I enjoy so much of God’s love, so why can’t I love Him? I know that God is righteous, so why do I misunderstand Him? I see how lacking in conscience and reason I am. I fall before God, my heart filled with remorse. Those who love God truly bear witness for Him. I must pursue the truth and no longer wait passively. The day of God grows nearer day by day. In my many years of believing in God, have I really accomplished anything? I must self-reflect in earnest, lest I go back to my old ways and cause God pain.