I heard, intermittently, a voice I knew, calling me.
As if awakened from a dream,
I looked to see who was calling me.
The voice was gentle yet strict,
holding an image of such beauty.
My heart and my spirit
were pierced by the words conveyed to me.
They laid bare the truth of my corruption,
and I had nowhere to hide.
In distress and disgust, I reflected on all I had done.
I showed my lowness by vying with God
for status in our interactions.
After all, God is God,
just as man is still a man.
I had no sense, did not know myself,
I was foolish and arrogant.
I knew no shame and embarrassed myself;
my heart was filled with regret.
I’d been corrupted by Satan so deeply
that I’d become so vile.
Poisoned and steeped in the evil one’s thoughts,
I’d lost all my humanity.
I was revealed to be so corrupted
and without human likeness.
Unless I lost my corrupt disposition,
my service would be fruitless.
With all my misconceptions of God,
of course I resisted Him.
Thanks to God’s chastisement and judgment,
I am cleansed and saved, yeah.
I am beaten and suffer great pain,
yet a loving hand caresses me.
For my rebellion and injustice,
I know that God judges me.
I truly hate myself,
a long-time follower of the Lord,
who after all this time still did not know the true God.
Seeing that He’s so holy and righteous,
I submit completely.
The judgment and chastisement God gives
are His love and blessing.
Only thanks to His salvation by judgment
do I have this day.
God’s realness and His almightiness
are shown to humans fully.
I know God and how lovable He is,
now I live in the light.
God is oh so lovely and I swear,
I swear with all my heart.
I will love Him forever and ever,
and I’ll bear Him witness, witness.