186 The Song of the Prodigal Son’s Return
1 Why are you still like this after believing in God for so many years? You flee from judgment and chastisement as if you don’t even care. Your decadent face shows your careless attitude, as though you’ve suffered great injustice and no longer have the heart to follow God. You, the fallen prodigal son, where are you headed, so stubborn? It seems you submit to God’s orchestrations and do not make choices for yourself. You linger at the crossroads and have lost the “faith” you had at the start. You resolutely look death in the face and march on to an unclear future.
2 In the haze, you seem to possess “great faith”—God will not abandon you, so you carry on as you like. Extravagant desires take the place of your subjective efforts. You are overburdened with negativity and you still haven’t rid yourself of it. Where has your conscience and reason gone? Even now you still haven’t awoken. You really are so useless and incompetent. You think that your noble character is sacred and inviolable. Even God in flesh is humble, a corrupt man has no dignity.
3 The tragedy is that I don’t know myself at all. Within my imposing exterior there lurks a base villain. I let God down by not having the truth and I feel so ashamed. How can I speak of doing my duty when my corrupt disposition has not changed one bit? How can I gain truth and life without undergoing judgment? God’s work will soon come to an end and I am terrified, afraid of falling into the disasters, and only being able to wail and gnash my teeth. So now, I will pull myself together and accept God’s judgment and chastisement. Only then will I be wise.