185 I Have Seen God
1 I heard God’s voice and came back before Him. I cried out His name in prayer, as if returning to my own mother. God knew the pain in my heart; God knew what I longed for. God’s words watered my parched heart, and I tasted their sweetness and experienced the warmth of His family. The judgment of God’s words revealed the truth of man’s corruption, and I finally saw I was filled with a satanic disposition and lived only for the flesh. I believed in the Lord only in order to be blessed, in pursuit of fame and fortune. I long ago lost my conscience as a human being. Words of judgment awoke me, and only then did I find direction in life. Christ is my heart’s beloved, and I wish in my heart to follow Him closely.
2 I gain so much from experiencing God’s judgment, and every one of His words pierces my heart like a sword. I, who was so arrogant, lower my head and hate myself for being so selfish and without humanity. It is only thanks to God’s judgment that I have changed. I am grateful for God’s judgment, for cleansing and saving me. Though His words are harsh, they are all spoken to save man. His heart is so kind and good. Each of His words reveals His righteous disposition and gives rise to reverence in my heart. My corrupt disposition is cleansed and I come face-to-face with God. I savor His words every day; I live before Him, and my heart is filled with joy and peace. God’s love is so true, so real; He deserves man’s praise. I wish to love and bear witness to God, and always to be by His side.