By Gabriella, Italy

In 2014, I began doing acting duty in the church. Besides acting and honing my skills, the rest of my time was my own to arrange as I wanted, so my life was relatively free and comfortable. Because I loved acting and was willing to put effort into my performances, my skills had improved significantly after acting in two films, so the leader asked me to train in doing directing duty. I was quite reluctant at the time, thinking, “A director has so many responsibilities. You have to be involved in everything the team does, and you have to review the footage after shooting. It’s mentally and physically exhausting. If I work this hard every day, I’ll end up completely worn out and haggard!” But the thought that refusing a duty would not be in accordance with God’s intentions made me reluctantly accept. The sisters were all happy for me when they learned I’d been promoted to doing directing duty, but I thought, “This is clearly an exhausting job. I don’t pursue taking on a major commission, because the heavier the burden, the more tiring it is for the flesh. I just want to be an ordinary actor. As long as I’m not lying idle, it’s fine.”

When I was in charge of directing my first film, the coordinator arranged a packed schedule every day. After every shoot, we still had to discuss the acting, shots, or set issues for the next scene. While filming, I sat in front of the monitor and didn’t dare let my attention wander for a second. If I lost focus, I couldn’t judge whether the performance was accurate and would have to watch the playback or reshoot. Sometimes, after the filming wrapped up on set and the other crew members had left, I still had to stay behind to handle other tasks. Moreover, this film had many protagonists and antagonists, and I had to walk the actors through their scenes, rehearse with them, and coach them, overseeing it all. For every scene, I had to delve into the characters beforehand and understand them thoroughly to be able to judge if the actors’ performances were true to their characters. This was especially true for emotional scenes: When an actor couldn’t get into character, I had to find ways to get them into the right emotional state. I just felt that being a director was so mentally draining! As an actor, all I had to do was perform my own part well and that was it. That duty was so much more relaxing. From the bottom of my heart, I hated directing duty. After that, I started to be perfunctory in my duty. During filming, when I saw actors struggling to achieve the desired effect, instead of thinking about how to coach them to improve their performance, I’d just hastily approve the take. As a result, when the leader reviewed the film clips, she found the performances weren’t up to standard, and we had to reshoot. Another time, the sister I was cooperating with asked me to add some physical movements into the actors’ performance during rehearsals. I thought it was too much trouble, so I didn’t. Consequently, the performance was lacking, and right before filming began, she had to coach the actors on the spot to put the actions in, which delayed the shoot. At that moment, I felt awful inside, knowing I hadn’t fulfilled my responsibility. But afterward, whenever it was time to actually do the work, I still felt that doing this duty was just too tiring and troublesome. Two months flew by, and the actors were constantly having problems with their performances. The coordinator reminded me several times to walk the actors through their scenes in more detail, but not only did I not listen, I felt resistant, thinking, “Being more detailed would be such a hassle! How long would the rehearsals end up taking?” I would even try to argue, saying, “When I was an actor, no one coached me in such detail. Isn’t acting the actor’s own responsibility?” When it was time to rehearse, I would still only give the actors a rough outline without any details, which led to frequent reshoots and delayed the production schedule.

After some time, Brother Elias was assigned to cooperate with me in doing directing duty. The coordinator said to me, “It looks like you’re struggling to do directing duty on your own. From now on, you’ll mainly be responsible for walking the actors through their scenes, and Brother Elias will oversee things from the monitor.” I was actually quite happy to hear this. I thought, “Great! I don’t have to watch the monitor and oversee things anymore. This way, my time will be more flexible, and I won’t be so tired.” After that, as soon as I finished rehearsing with the actors, I’d go off and tend to my own personal matters. I didn’t care how they performed, and as a result, there were always problems in the actors’ performances during the actual shoot. The coordinator told me to examine my attitude toward my duty, but I thought to myself, “What’s there for me to examine if the actors aren’t performing well? Is this being blamed on me now?” The more I thought about it, the more I felt this duty was a thankless task. During those days, several actors I was coaching kept having issues during filming. The coordinator once again reminded me to reflect on my attitude toward my duty, and it was only then that I began to reflect. Looking back, although my flesh had been comfortable for the past few days, I felt a strange sense of unease in my heart, so I prayed to God and reflected on myself, and recalled a part of God’s words: “‘You like being wily and slacking off, don’t you? You like being lazy, and indulging in comfort, do you not? Well then, indulge in comfort forevermore!’ God will give this grace and opportunity to someone else.” I then looked for that whole passage to read. Almighty God says: “If you perform your duty perfunctorily, and approach it with an irreverent attitude, what will the result be? You’ll fail to do a good job in even a duty that you are capable of performing well—your performance will not be up to standard, and God will be very dissatisfied with the attitude you have toward your duty. If you could have prayed to God, sought the truth, and put your whole heart and mind into it, if you could have cooperated in this way, then God would have prepared everything for you in advance, so that when you were handling matters, everything would fall into place, and yield good results. You would not need to exert a vast amount of energy; when you did your utmost to cooperate, God would have already arranged everything for you. If you are slippery and slack off, if you do not attend properly to your duty, and always go down the wrong path, then God will not work in you; you will lose this opportunity, and God will say, ‘You are no good; I cannot use you. Go stand off to the side. You like being wily and slacking off, don’t you? You like being lazy, and indulging in comfort, do you not? Well then, indulge in comfort forevermore!’ God will give this grace and opportunity to someone else. What do you say: Is this a loss or a gain? (A loss.) It is an enormous loss!” (The Word, Vol. 3. The Discourses of Christ of the Last Days. Part Three). After reading it, I understood that a person’s attitude toward their duty is crucial. If people can do their duty with all their heart and mind, God will enlighten and guide them, and they will achieve good results. But if their attitude is flippant or perfunctory, then a duty that could have been done well with a little effort will be done poorly. I clearly saw that the actors’ performances were not up to par, yet to save myself trouble, I didn’t coach them patiently and just hastily approved the takes, which resulted in the need to reshoot when the performances didn’t pass muster. I only gave the actors a rough outline without any details when rehearsing, which led to several of them having problems with their performances on set, causing constant retakes and delaying the schedule. This was all caused by me being perfunctory and cutting corners in my duty. The coordinator had reminded me multiple times to reflect on my attitude toward my duty, but I had just argued and made excuses. I was always perfunctory in my duty, which constantly caused problems, so the coordinator stopped letting me oversee things from the monitor. But not only did I not reflect on myself, I was actually happy because my flesh could be more at ease. I had become completely numb! The church had cultivated me as an actor, giving me many opportunities to train. With the Holy Spirit’s enlightenment and guidance, I had also accumulated some acting experience. Now, as the church was cultivating me to be a director and needed me to apply what I’d learned to my duty, I resisted, complained, and was perfunctory just because I needed to put in some time and effort and my flesh would have to suffer. I was so lacking in humanity, truly loathsome to God! Especially after reading these God’s words, “You like being wily and slacking off, don’t you?” “God will give this grace and opportunity to someone else.” I realized that the reason I wasn’t asked to oversee things from the monitor anymore was that I had been cutting corners and being irresponsible in my duty. I was no longer trustworthy, so the opportunity to do this part of the duty was given to someone else. I was already on the edge of a dangerous precipice; if I didn’t repent, I might lose even the chance to walk the actors through their scenes. So after that, I began to take rehearsals with the actors seriously. Whenever I saw an actor’s performance was lacking, I would promptly point it out and patiently coach them. I would also find some reference videos to go through with the actors. In the end, the filming of that movie was completed smoothly.

I thought I had changed a little, but I never expected to relapse into my old ways while filming the next movie. At that time, I was still responsible for coaching the actors. The lead actress in this film was Sister Isabel. She had just started to train in acting and there were a lot of deficiencies in her performance, which meant the mental energy I had to expend and the price I had to pay were greater than before. When we first started shooting, I was still able to work earnestly. I would promptly point out where the actors’ performances were lacking and sometimes also give demonstrations for them myself. But as time went on, having to coach the actors for every scene started to feel mentally taxing. Plus, the brother I was cooperating with, Brother Vincent, was quite proactive in his duty and was very conscientious about coaching the actors, so my own sense of burden gradually lessened. I stopped worrying about other tasks as well. A few times, I noticed that Sister Isabel didn’t have a good grasp of her character. I initially planned to find some time at night to talk with her, but then I thought about how tired I already was after a long day of running through scenes. If I coached her at night, I definitely wouldn’t have the energy for the next day’s shoot. So, I just thought, “Forget it, I just won’t coach her.” As a result, during filming the next day, there were problems with Sister Isabel’s performance, which delayed our progress. I deeply regretted not fulfilling my responsibility, but afterward, whenever a price had to be paid, I would still show consideration for my flesh and could not practice the truth. Gradually, I found it more and more difficult to coach the actors, to the point where I couldn’t even see the problems in their performances anymore. Due to performance issues, we frequently had to do retakes. This, combined with various other factors, meant the film just couldn’t get finished, and in the end, the film team was disbanded. The night we were disbanded, I tossed and turned, unable to sleep. Looking back, ever since I was asked to do directing duty, I had never truly submitted. I had always disliked the duty for being too tiring. I asked myself honestly, “Could it be that I believe in God just to indulge in fleshly comforts? Isn’t this being rebellious toward God?” During a gathering, the leader pruned me, saying, “God’s house cultivated you to be a director, but I never thought you’d be so irresponsible. You’re truly untrustworthy!” During that time, my heart always felt empty. The moment I thought about having no more chance to make amends, tears of pain would involuntarily stream down my face. I was often in anguish for not having fulfilled my duty and for the transgressions I had committed. I felt so indebted to God that I was even ashamed to pray to Him, always feeling that God was disgusted with me and loathed me, that He had hidden His face from me and was ignoring me. It was as if I had been set aside by God, and my spirit was in darkness and pain. Later, I was arranged to preach the gospel. Although I was still doing a duty, this matter remained an unresolved knot in my heart. I prayed and sought many times after that, “God, where exactly did I fail? Please enlighten and guide me to know myself.”

One day, when I read God’s words exposing and characterizing lazy people, I felt deeply pierced in my heart. Almighty God says: “Lazy people can’t do anything. To summarize it in two words, they are useless people; they have a second-class disability. No matter how good the caliber of lazy people is, it is nothing more than window dressing; even though they have good caliber, it is of no use. They are too lazy—they know what they are supposed to do, but they don’t do it, and even if they know something is a problem, they do not seek the truth to resolve it, and though they know what hardships they should suffer in order for the work to be effective, they are unwilling to endure these worthwhile hardships—so they cannot gain any truths, and they cannot do any real work. They do not wish to endure the hardships people are supposed to; they only know to indulge in comfort, enjoy times of joy and leisure, and enjoy a free and relaxed life. Are they not useless? People who cannot endure hardship don’t deserve to live. Those who always wish to live the life of a parasite are people without conscience or reason; they are beasts, and such people are unfit even to perform labor. Because they cannot endure hardship, even when they do perform labor, they are not able to do it well, and if they wish to gain the truth, there is even less hope of that. Someone who cannot suffer and does not love the truth is a useless person; they are unqualified even to perform labor. They are a beast, without a shred of humanity. Such people must be eliminated; only this accords with God’s intentions” (The Word, Vol. 5. The Responsibilities of Leaders and Workers. The Responsibilities of Leaders and Workers (8)). Pondering them, scene after scene from my time doing directing duty came to mind. God’s house had arranged for me to be a director to coach the actors in their performance. I had clearly seen that the performance of the lead actress had deficiencies but to save myself from getting too tired, I didn’t coach her, failing to fulfill even my most basic responsibility. Seeing Brother Vincent being so proactive, I took advantage of the situation and washed my hands of my work. On paper, I was also a director, but in reality, Brother Vincent was the only one directing. This led to many aspects of the work not being done properly, and in the end, the film couldn’t be finished and the entire team was disbanded. The price brothers and sisters had paid over several months and all that God’s house had spent, had gone down the drain. I held the title of director but did no real work, and failed to fulfill my proper function. Wasn’t I just a figurehead, completely useless? I was lazy and unconcerned, and always perfunctory in my duty. God had raised up people, events, and things to remind me many times, but I never truly repented. In the end, I lost the work of the Holy Spirit; I couldn’t identify problems in my duty, and my spirit felt exceptionally dark and pained. I had always lived by satanic ideas like “Every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost” and “Life is short, so enjoy it while you can.” I believed that in one’s few decades of life, one shouldn’t wear oneself out so much; it’s enough to just live freely and comfortably every day. Under the control of this kind of thinking, I became lazy and stopped pursuing progress. I remember in school, while others studied hard to be number one, I found studying too tiring and dropped out early. After getting married, I didn’t envy others who bought cars and houses because I didn’t want to become a slave to a mortgage or car loan and put myself under so much pressure. After coming to believe in God and do my duty in God’s house, I didn’t want to take on important work. I was content with just doing a duty, thinking it would be enough to just muddle through and wangle an outcome of not perishing when God’s work was over. The church cultivated me to be a director, hoping I could use my skills to fulfill my duty, but I found the duty too tiring and resisted it from the bottom of my heart. Even though I accepted it, I was always cutting corners and being perfunctory. I thought of a line from the Bible: “For if we sin willfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remains no more sacrifice for sins” (Hebrews 10:26). I knew full well that being perfunctory and cutting corners in my duty was not in accordance with God’s intentions, yet I still did it for the sake of fleshly comfort, delaying the film work. Wasn’t this resisting God? Living by satanic viewpoints, I indulged in comfort and was irresponsible in my duty, leaving behind one transgression after another. God says: “Transgressions Will Lead Man to Hell” (The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God). Living by satanic poisons, I was walking the path of perdition and destruction. As a director, I should have been setting an example for the team, but I didn’t walk the right path. I only thought about my own fleshly comfort and avoiding hard work, and was perfunctory and cut corners in my duty. As a result, the brothers and sisters spent months of their time with nothing to show for it, and the entire team reached the point of being disbanded. I couldn’t shoulder the responsibility that a person should fulfill. I was just a good-for-nothing, and deserved to be eliminated! I also came to realize that God setting me aside was His silent judgment upon me. This was God’s righteous disposition coming upon me, and it was God’s love and salvation for me. Otherwise, I would not have reflected on the erroneous perspectives behind my pursuit. I thought of God’s words: “For mankind’s sake, He travels and rushes about; He silently gives forth every bit of His life; He dedicates every minute and second of His life….” (The Word, Vol. 2. On Knowing God. God Himself, the Unique II). As I carefully pondered this sentence, “For mankind’s sake, He travels and rushes about” my heart was both moved and filled with self-reproach. To save humanity, God came from heaven to earth twice in the flesh, enduring immense humiliation. The first time, He was crucified and gave His life to redeem humanity. In the last days, God has become flesh again, expressing so many truths to water and supply us. Everything God does is for the sake of saving people and is all love for them. But what did I give God in return? Nothing but rebelliousness and resistance. God’s house was still giving me the chance to do a duty. This was God’s mercy and a chance for me to repent. If my old disposition didn’t change, then when God’s work is over, I would surely be an object of destruction.

During that time, I repeatedly sang “Noah’s Submission to God Earned His Approval”:

1  Among all men, Noah was the figure of fearing God, submitting to God, and completing God’s commission that is most worthy of emulation; he was approved of by God, and should be a model to those who follow God today. And what was most precious about him? He had only one attitude toward God’s words: to listen and accept, to accept and submit, and to submit until death. It was this attitude, which was most precious of all, that won him God’s approval. When it came to God’s words, he wasn’t perfunctory, he didn’t go through the motions, and he did not scrutinize, analyze, resist, or reject them inside his head, then relegate them to the back of his mind; instead, he listened in earnest, accepted them, little by little, in his heart, and then pondered how to put them into practice, how to implement them, how to practice them as originally intended, without any deviation.

2  And as he pondered God’s words, he said privately to himself, “These are the words of God, they are God’s instructions, God’s commission, I am duty-bound, I must submit, I cannot leave out any details, I cannot go against any of God’s wishes, nor can I overlook any one of the details of what He said, or else I would not be fit to be called human, I would be unworthy of God’s commission, and unworthy of His exaltation. In this life, if I fail to complete all that God has told me and entrusted to me, then I will be left with regrets. More than that, I will be unworthy of God’s commission and His exaltation of me, and will not have the face to return before the Creator.”

3  Everything that Noah had thought and contemplated in his heart, his every perspective, and his every attitude, each determined that he was eventually able to put God’s words into practice, make God’s words a reality, bring God’s words to fruition, and make it so that they were fulfilled and accomplished through his hard work and turned into a reality through him, and so that God’s commission did not come to nothing. Noah was worthy of God’s commission, he was a man trusted by God, and one looked upon favorably by God. God observes people’s every word and deed, He observes their thoughts and ideas. In God’s eyes, for Noah to be able to think like this, He had not mischosen; Noah could shoulder God’s commission and God’s trust, and he was able to complete God’s commission: He was the only choice among all of humankind.

—The Word, Vol. 4. Exposing Antichrists. Excursus Three: How Noah and Abraham Obeyed God’s Words and Submitted to Him (Part Two)

Noah was a man of conscience and humanity. He approached God’s commission with his whole heart and mind, taking on the building of the ark as his life’s responsibility and mission. When Noah was building the ark, there was no one to supervise him or urge him on, and he encountered many difficulties. But whenever he thought that this was God’s commission and exaltation, he felt motivated. Noah treated God as the Creator; he submitted to God and had a sincere heart for God. I then pondered what God says: “… bring God’s words to fruition, and make it so that they were fulfilled and accomplished through his hard work and turned into a reality through him, and so that God’s commission did not come to nothing.” God was speaking of Noah’s actual living out. Noah didn’t know the techniques for building an ark, and technology back then wasn’t as advanced as it is today. Moreover, he had to find all the materials himself, building the ark bit by bit with his own labor. Noah also had to gather all kinds of living creatures, prepare all sorts of food for the various animals, and carefully look after and raise them. This was no easy task. If Noah had found it too taxing and laborious and had been perfunctory, the ark could never have been built, and all living creatures would have faced extinction. But in the face of so many difficulties, Noah didn’t shrink back in the slightest. Instead, he strictly followed God’s requirements without any compromise, and persevered for 120 years to complete God’s commission. I saw that Noah’s heart was sincere; he was considerate of God’s intentions and showed loyalty and submission toward God. Thinking of this, I was deeply moved, and I truly admired Noah. Looking at myself in contrast, even after hearing so many of God’s words, I showed not the slightest submission or loyalty toward Him. The duty I performed was so much simpler than Noah building the ark, yet I was unwilling to put in a little extra thought and was perfunctory as well. I saw that I was so lacking in humanity, unworthy of being called a human. Noah was anxious to carry out what was urgent to God and considered what God was considering, ensuring that God’s intentions would not come to nothing in him. No matter how tired or weary his flesh was, his attitude toward God’s commission was to listen, accept, and submit. As long as he was alive, he kept building the ark, remaining submissive until death. This precious attitude of Noah’s brought comfort to God’s heart. Only people like Noah are those who truly possess humanity. I thought about how God’s house has us preach the gospel and bear witness to God by making films. Although the form is different from building the ark, God’s intention to save mankind is the same. A well-made film can not only resolve people’s notions but also guide those who long for the Lord’s return to seek and investigate the true way. Making good films is so important, as it relates to God’s intention to save people. I couldn’t be lazy and find it too much of a hassle to put thought into it anymore. I had to emulate Noah, learn to be considerate of God’s intentions, and fulfill my duty.

In May 2024, the church arranged for me to do part-time duty reviewing experiential testimony videos. I realized this was God giving me a chance to repent, and I cherished it deeply, reviewing each video carefully. When my duty conflicted with my daily schedule, I would rebel against my flesh and prioritize my duty. Practicing this way, I no longer felt tired. In October, the leader arranged for me to go to the film team again to coach the actors. Hearing this news, I was very happy. In order not to delay rehearsals, I would wake up early and go to bed late, or use my lunch break to review videos. When rehearsing with the actors, I did my best to coach them and practiced with them a lot. Doing so, my heart felt truly peaceful and grounded.

Once, I was talking with a sister about my past experience of failure, and she guided me to reflect on and understand the perspective behind my pursuit. I thought of a passage of God’s words: “Man must seek to live out a life of meaning, and should not be satisfied with his current circumstances. To live out the image of Peter, he must possess the knowledge and experiences of Peter. Man must pursue things that are higher and more profound. He must pursue a deeper, purer love of God, and a life that has value and meaning. Only this is life; only then will man be the same as Peter. You must focus on entering proactively on the positive side, and you must not be passive and allow yourself to backslide for the sake of temporary ease while ignoring more profound, more detailed, and more practical truths. You must possess practical love, and you must find every possible way to free yourself from this decadent, carefree life that is no different from an animal’s. You must live out a life of meaning, a life of value, and you must not fool yourself or treat your life like a toy to be played with. For everyone who has resolve and loves God, there are no unobtainable truths and no justice for which they cannot stand firm. How should you live your life? How should you love God, and use this love to satisfy His intentions? There is no greater matter in your life. Above all, you must have this kind of resolve and perseverance, and should not be like those who are spineless weaklings. You must learn how to experience a meaningful life and experience meaningful truths, and should not treat yourself perfunctorily in that way. Without you realizing it, your life will pass you by; after that, will you still have this kind of opportunity to love God? Can man love God after he is dead? You must have the same resolve and conscience as Peter; your life must be meaningful, and you must not play games with yourself. As a human being, and as a person who pursues God, you must be able to consider and approach your life carefully—considering how you should offer yourself to God, how you should have a more meaningful faith in God, and how, since you love God, you should love Him in a way that is more pure, more beautiful, and more good” (The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. The Experiences of Peter: His Knowledge of Chastisement and Judgment). I had read this passage before, but I had never considered whether my outlook on life and my values were correct. After reading it, I understood that one must pursue leading a valuable and meaningful life. After Peter began to follow the Lord Jesus, he traveled everywhere preaching the Lord’s way. He didn’t pursue a comfortable life, but only pursued loving and satisfying God and fulfilling the duty of a created being. In the end, he was crucified upside down for God, achieving the ultimate love for God and submission unto death. He gained God’s approval, and his life was valuable and meaningful. But what I pursued was a life of comfort, always wanting to worry less. Living like that is meaningless; it’s just a waste of time. I thought about how doing directing duty had meant resting a little less and putting in a bit more thought than others, and was a little more tiring for my flesh. However, it meant I could do my bit in the gospel work—what a valuable thing that was! If I had done it well, my heart would be at peace and at ease whenever I thought about it. But now, every time I recall that experience of failure, my heart is filled with regret and pain. How I wish I could turn back time so I could make up for my debt! That incident has become a great transgression and regret in my life. I had to pursue casting off my corrupt disposition and fulfilling my duty. This is the correct goal to pursue. I thought of God’s words: “Pigs do not pursue the life of man, they do not pursue being cleansed, and they do not understand what life is. Each day, after eating their fill, they simply sleep. I have bestowed the true way on you, yet you have not gained it: You are empty-handed. Are you willing to continue in this life, the life of a pig?” (The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. The Experiences of Peter: His Knowledge of Chastisement and Judgment). If a person lives only to indulge in fleshly comfort and has no goal to pursue, then they are no different from a beast. I couldn’t continue to fall into degeneracy like this. I had to focus my mind and energy on pursuing the truth and fulfilling my duty. That’s the only way to live like a true human being!

After that, I prayed to God that He may chasten and discipline me if I were ever perfunctory in my duty again. I also frequently examined my attitude toward my duty. Whenever I was tempted to be perfunctory, I would quickly pray and rebel against my flesh. One afternoon, I was practicing lines with an actress. After correcting her several times, she still wasn’t improving. I started to feel it was too much trouble and didn’t want to teach her anymore. Just then, I thought of a passage of God’s words I had read two days earlier: “You want to be perfunctory when you perform your duty. You try to slack off, and try to avoid God’s scrutiny. At such times, hurry before God to pray, and reflect on whether this was the right way to act. Then think about it: ‘Why do I believe in God? Such perfunctoriness might get past people, but will it get past God? What’s more, my belief in God is not to slack off—it is in order to be saved. My acting thus is not the expression of normal humanity, nor is it beloved by God. No, I could slack off and do as I pleased in the outside world, but now I am in the house of God, I am under the sovereignty of God, under the scrutiny of God’s eyes. I am a person, I must act according to my conscience, I cannot do as I please. I must act according to God’s words, I must not be perfunctory, I cannot slack off. So how should I act to not slack off, to not be perfunctory? I must put in some effort. Just now I felt it was too much trouble to do it like this, I wanted to avoid hardship, but now I understand: It may be a lot of trouble to do it like that, but it is effective, and so that is how it should be done.’ When you are working and still feel afraid of hardship, at such times you must pray to God: ‘Oh God! I am a lazy and sly person, I beg You to discipline me, to reproach me, so that my conscience feels something, and I have a sense of shame. I don’t want to be perfunctory. I beg You to guide and enlighten me, to show me my rebelliousness and my ugliness.’ When you pray thus, reflect and try to know yourself, this will give rise to a feeling of regret, and you will be able to hate your ugliness, and your wrong state will begin to change….” (The Word, Vol. 3. The Discourses of Christ of the Last Days. Treasuring God’s Words Is the Foundation of Belief in God). I prayed to rebel against my wrong thoughts and ideas. I then analyzed each line with the actress and figured out where her problems were. After that, she delivered her lines much better, and the next day’s shoot went very smoothly. Practicing this way, my heart felt very peaceful and at ease. Afterward, the director asked me to go with the actress to record the narration. I took this seriously as well. I didn’t feel tired even when we recorded until the early hours of the morning. Later, when the film was finished and I saw the edited video, I was deeply moved. Although I only played a small part in this film, I felt that doing this duty was valuable and meaningful! Thanks be to God!