By Chen Si, China

Ever since I was little, I’d seen in papers and on TV female entrepreneurs and strong women from all walks of life achieve both fame and gain. They were so glamorous, I envied them so much. I hoped to one day become a successful female entrepreneur too so that my friends and relatives would admire me and think highly of me. What a glorious, happy life that would be! To realize my dream sooner, my husband and I quit our factory jobs in 1997 and embarked on a new adventure, starting a clothing business. With the tide of reform and opening up, we soon earned some money and our business gradually stabilized. Our friends and relatives all thought highly of us and curried favor with us. My husband and I found ourselves suddenly popular in our family. I was so happy. But I wasn’t satisfied and wanted to grow the business even more and, when the time came, to take our place in the business world. Later, we were engaged in wholesale with a businessman, but we didn’t expect that he was a cheat, and as a result, we lost all our savings. We had no choice but to sell our shop and move back to our hometown. I despaired. But I never gave up on my dream to be an entrepreneur. I planned on borrowing money and making a comeback. I never could have imagined that when our relatives saw that we were in dire straits, they feared we wouldn’t be able to pay them back, so they refused to help us. I felt so miserable and helpless. Seeing me so down, my husband comforted me, saying, “Don’t be sad. It’s often said ‘When you’re rich, you have friends aplenty, but when you’re poor, everyone ignores you.’ That’s how harsh this society is—if you’ve got no money, even your parents despise you. Our friends and relatives will only think highly of us if we become rich!” Remembering how glorious things had been compared to how embarrassed we felt being rejected by friends and relatives, I vowed to myself that I would make a comeback! I borrowed money from out-of-town friends, some from here, some from there, and started a brand franchise business. Under my diligent management, the business gradually prospered. A few years later I had a car, a house, and savings. My wealthy customers treated me with great enthusiasm and my husband obeyed my every word because I was able to make money. Friends and relatives began to fawn on me again, praising me for being smart, capable, and a strong woman. Although I knew it was insincere flattery, I still really enjoyed seeing the way they fawned on me. Things were different now that I had money, and being able to win the admiration of so many people greatly satisfied my vanity. I felt that all these years of hard work had been worth it.

Later, my peers saw that I was getting rich selling brand products, so they started selling brands too. I suddenly felt a crisis looming. To beat my competitors, not only did I have to watch and guard against them, but I also had to cozy up to my customers in all kinds of ways, calling them to ask after them every day and arranging various promotions to attract customers. I wore a facade every day, competing both openly and in secret with my peers and sweet-talking clients. Inside I felt so tired and repressed. At the end of the day, I would feel so tired that my back ached. I didn’t even want to talk when I got home and just wanted to get a good night’s sleep. But when I lay down in bed, I just tossed and turned and couldn’t sleep, wondering what my competitors might be planning against me in secret and what promotional event I could run to beat them. My head was filled with calculations and struggles, and I was on edge. I often suffered from insomnia due to overwork. I took a lot of calming and brain-nourishing nutritional products, but to no avail. Sometimes I would finally fall asleep, only to be frightened awake by nightmares. I often felt inexplicable emptiness and anxiety. I worried that if I slacked off even a little, my competitors would win, and I’d crash out of the market with a ruined reputation. I looked successful on the outside, but only I knew how much I suffered inside. In the middle of the night, I’d often think, “Is this the happy life I’d longed for all those years?” I felt confused. But I still didn’t want to live a life of mediocrity, being looked down upon by others. So even though I was physically and mentally exhausted, I still didn’t dare to relax even a bit. All I wanted was to grow the business. After a few years of painstaking management, the brand I managed became popular in the local area. At recognition ceremonies, headquarters even invited me to make a speech sharing my successful experiences. When I stood on the speaker’s platform, hearing the waves of applause and seeing the admiration in others’ eyes, I felt that my dream had finally come true. I felt so excited and happy. It was like getting a taste of being a celebrity, I was on cloud nine, and felt like all those years of suffering and hard work had been worth it. But no one knew the exhaustion and suffering I felt behind the success. My eyesight deteriorated due to overwork. The doctor said my vitreous was cloudy and I had severe cataracts, and that I had to have an operation to avoid going blind. Although I’d won the admiration of my friends and relatives, there was no relief from the pain and emptiness I felt deep down. Because the competitive pressure was so great, I was often really on edge. Though my peers and I greeted one another with smiles, schemes roiled under the surface, and we were all deeply guarded against one another. So although our industry was huge, I didn’t have a single person I could confide in. I lived every day in disguise and my heart yearned for the day I could live a relaxed, happy life.

In 2007. A sister testified to me of Almighty God’s work of the last days. Through reading God’s words, I saw that Almighty God’s words are the truth and became certain that Almighty God is the Lord Jesus returned. I also realized that God has incarnated in the last days to do the work of judgment in order to save mankind, and that only by accepting Almighty God’s judgment and purification, and by casting off our corrupt dispositions, can we be saved by God and enter His kingdom. I heard a hymn of God’s words which really moved me.

God Is Seeking Your Heart and Your Spirit

2  The Almighty has mercy on these people who have suffered deeply; at the same time, He feels averse toward these people who lack consciousness, as He has had to wait too long for an answer from humanity. He wishes to seek, to seek your heart and your spirit, to bring you water and food and to awaken you, that you may no longer be thirsty and hungry. When you are weary and when you begin to feel something of the bleak desolation of this world, do not be lost, do not cry. Almighty God, the Watcher, will embrace your arrival at any time.

3  He is keeping watch by your side, waiting for you to turn back around. He is waiting for the day you suddenly recover your memory: when you realize that you came from God, that, at some unknown time you lost your direction, at some unknown time you lost consciousness on the road, and at some unknown time acquired a “father”; when you realize, furthermore, that the Almighty has always been keeping watch, waiting there a very, very long time for your return.

4  He has been watching with desperate longing, waiting for a response without an answer. His watching and waiting are beyond any price, and they are for the sake of the human heart and the human spirit. Perhaps this watching and waiting are indefinite, and perhaps they are at an end. But you should know exactly where your heart and your spirit are right now.

—The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. The Sighing of the Almighty

I was deeply moved by God’s words and I thought about my arduous journey of running a business these years. Although I had a car and a house and I’d fulfilled my desires, I still felt uneasy. To make more money every day, I flattered my customers and sucked up to them, and my peers and I schemed against and cheated each other for profits; I was mentally and physically exhausted. I presented a fantastic image, but I was suffering so much inside. Now that I’d heard the call of God’s voice, I felt like an orphan wandering outside for many years who’d finally returned to her mother’s warm embrace, never to feel alone or helpless again. At gatherings, brothers and sisters were simple and open, fellowshipping on their understanding of God’s words, being frank and sincere with each other. There was none of the scheming found in the business world, none of the jealousy and strife. When I encountered difficulties, the brothers and sisters fellowshipped God’s words with me, bringing light into my heart and giving me a path of practice, making me feel so relaxed and liberated. I’d never felt like this before. Believing in God is wonderful!

Later, during my devotionals, I read these words of God: “If you are truly possessed of conscience, then you must have a burden, and a sense of responsibility. You must say: ‘Regardless of whether I will be conquered or made perfect, I must bear this step of testimony properly.’ As a created being, one can be utterly conquered by God, and ultimately, one becomes able to satisfy God, repaying God’s love with a God-loving heart and by completely devoting oneself to God. This is the responsibility of man, it is the duty that ought to be performed by man, and the burden that ought to be borne by man, and man must complete this commission. Only then does he truly believe in God. Today, is what you do in the church the fulfillment of your responsibility? This depends on whether you are burdened, and it depends on your own knowledge” (The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. Practice (3)). I read God’s words again and again and felt self-reproach. After accepting God’s work of the last days, I enjoyed the provision of God’s words every day. When things got difficult, brothers and sisters would fellowship God’s words with me to help me. This was God’s love. I couldn’t enjoy God’s provision for nothing and not do my duty. To do that would be without conscience. As a created being, I should do my duty, this is my responsibility and obligation. Being moved by God’s words, I began to do my duty the best I could.

Two years later, I was selected to be a watering team leader, and every day I was busy watering and supporting newcomers. Because I didn’t have so much energy, I let the shop workers handle the business. Sometimes sales would drop, and my husband would argue with me, saying, “With you away from the shop, sooner or later the business will fail, and then who will think anything of you?” What he said really hit me where it hurt. I remembered how relatives and friends all looked down on me when I was down and out. It had been so hard to achieve what I had with the business; I had to keep running it properly. But then I thought of how doing my duty was my responsibility and obligation. I couldn’t be without conscience and not do my duty. I was all torn inside. I thought, “If my sales continue to fall, what should I do if the shop really were to close? Who would then hold me in any regard? No, I have to think of a way to get sales up as my priority.” After that, I didn’t put so much effort into doing my duty anymore. Whenever I used to hear of a brother or sister feeling negative and weak, I’d hurry to help and support them. But now all I wanted to do was rush off to the shop. On a few occasions, because things were so busy at the shop and I couldn’t leave, I’d end up being late to gatherings. I’d feel somewhat guilty, but I just couldn’t put my business aside. Because I wasn’t watering and supporting negative and weak brothers and sisters in good time, one sister became entirely focused on making money and stopped attending gatherings, and other brothers and sisters stopped attending gatherings on a regular basis. When I found out about these things happening, I was very upset. However, whenever there was a clash between duty and business, because I’d be unable to attend to my business, I’d feel somewhat weak inside, finding myself wanting to switch to a lighter duty. But then I thought of a passage of God’s words: “How you regard God’s commissions is extremely important, and this is a very serious matter. If you cannot complete what God has entrusted to people, then you are not fit to live in His presence and you should be punished. It is perfectly natural and justified that humans should complete whatever commissions God entrusts to them. This is man’s supreme responsibility, and is just as important as their very lives. If you do not take God’s commissions seriously, then you are betraying Him in the most grievous way. In this, you are more lamentable than Judas, and should be cursed. People must gain a thorough understanding of how to treat what God entrusts to them and, at the very least, they must comprehend that the commissions He entrusts to humanity are exaltations and special favors from God, and that they are most glorious things. Everything else can be abandoned. Even if a person must sacrifice their own life, they must still fulfill God’s commission” (The Word, Vol. 3. The Discourses of Christ of the Last Days. How to Know Man’s Nature). God’s words made me feel the special meaning of duty. One’s duty is a God-given commission, and as created beings we should do our duties well—this is our responsibility. God was showing grace on me by giving me the chance to train in watering newcomers. But I heeded only my own business and didn’t water or support them. Some brothers and sisters didn’t get the watering they needed and so withdrew. Wasn’t I causing harm to them? I treated my duty lightly and irresponsibly. I’d betrayed God! The more I thought about it, the more self-reproach and remorse I felt, so I prayed to God, willing to repent and do my duty well. Later, I began to actively water and support the newcomers. Some brothers and sisters who had stopped attending gatherings began attending gatherings regularly again. Finally, I began to feel at ease in my heart.

In 2013, I was elected as a church leader. I knew God was raising me up, but I felt torn inside again: No matter how busy I’d been as a watering team leader, I could always find time to run my business. As a church leader, I’d be responsible for the overall work of the church and I’d have no time to look after my business. As time went on, would my old customers go elsewhere? Wouldn’t I be bowing out and handing my customer base, which had been so difficult to hold together all these years, over to others for nothing? I thought about how my husband had taken care of me and friends and relatives had greeted me with smiles all these years, just because I could make money. Who would think highly of me if I no longer had a career? When I thought of possibly losing everything I’d painstakingly managed, I felt incredibly tormented. But if I didn’t accept this duty, my conscience would not be at peace, and I’d feel indebted to God. At night, I tossed and turned, unable to sleep. I thought of my faith in God these past years and how I’d eaten, drank, and enjoyed God’s words every day, and about how many of God’s graces and blessings I’d enjoyed. When I’d drifted in the world feeling desolate and helpless, God’s words warmed my heart and brought me to His house, and thereupon my heart found a support. When I’d rushed about and busied myself only for money and felt exhausted in body and mind, God’s words helped me understand the duty and responsibility I should fulfill as a created being, and I found the way to conduct myself. When I was pursuing money and was perfunctory in my duty, being judged and exposed by God’s words made me see that my attitude toward my duty was a betrayal of God, and my numb, intransigent heart was awakened. This was God loving and saving me. How could I put my business before my duty again and hurt God’s heart? I prayed to God and asked Him for the faith and strength to make the right choice.

The next morning, I read a passage of Almighty God’s words: “If I were to place some money in front of you right now and give you the freedom to choose—and if I did not condemn you for your choice—then most of you would choose the money and forsake the truth. The better among you would give up the money and choose the truth reluctantly, while those in-between would seize the money in one hand and the truth in the other. Would your true colors thus not become self-evident? When choosing between the truth and anything to which you are loyal, you would all make this choice, and your attitude would remain the same. Is that not so? Are there not many among you who have seesawed between right and wrong? In contests between positive and negative, black and white, you are surely aware of the choices that you have made between family and God, children and God, peace and disruption, riches and poverty, status and ordinariness, being supported and being cast aside, and so on. Between a peaceful family and a broken one, you chose the former, and you did so without any hesitation; between riches and duty, you again chose the former, even lacking the will to return to shore; between luxury and poverty, you chose the former; when choosing between your sons, daughters, wives and husbands, and Me, you chose the former; and between notion and truth, you once again chose the former. Faced with all manner of your evil deeds, I have simply lost faith in you. It simply astounds Me that your hearts are so resistant to being softened. Many years of dedication and effort have apparently brought Me nothing more than your abandonment and resignation, but My hopes for you grow with each passing day, for My day has been completely laid bare before everyone. Yet you persist in seeking dark and evil things, and refuse to loosen your grip on them. What, then, will be your outcome? Have you ever given careful consideration to this? If you were asked to choose again, what then would be your position? Would it still be the former? Would you still bring Me disappointment and wretched sorrow? Would your hearts still possess the sole modicum of warmth? Would you still be unaware of what to do to comfort My heart?” (The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. To Whom Are You Loyal?). Contemplating God’s words, I felt pricked and distressed. Since I started believing in God, I’d been struggling and swinging back and forth between career and duty, unwilling to give up the career I’d managed so painstakingly but unwilling to give up the truth, either. So when my duty affected my career, I felt resistant and even wanted to refuse my duty. Only through being exposed by God’s words did I see that, although I believed in and followed God, my heart had no place for God, and that what I cherished was not the truth or God’s salvation, but my career, money, and status. This wasn’t faith in God, this was me following Satan and betraying God. God is a God who abhors evil. Wanting God’s salvation while also pursuing money, fame, and gain and enjoying the flesh meant that it was impossible for me to be saved by God. God incarnating in the last days and expressing the truth to save mankind is our only chance to be saved. If I kept on blindly pursuing money and not pursuing the truth and I lost this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, wouldn’t I be destroying my own life? I’d regret it for the rest of my days! To have the chance now to do my duty and pursue the truth was God’s love and grace and I gave thanks to God. I ate and drank God’s words and enjoyed God’s grace and provision but gave no thought to doing my duty well, always wanting to do business and make money, and wanting to pursue fame, gain, and status. I was being so without conscience and reason! I could no longer follow the flesh and rebel against God. God was expecting me to make the right choice. I had to give up my career to focus on pursuing the truth, and I had to fulfill my duty. I then handed my whole business over to the shop workers to manage and began devoting all my time to doing my duties. Although I was busy every day, I felt at ease in my heart. When I saw some brothers and sisters in the church who were like I used to be—working from dawn to dusk, rushing about, desperately earning money, and living in pain and confusion amongst the fool and harm of Satan—I relied on God and fellowshipped His words with them. After they understood God’s intentions, they were able to cast off the bondage of money, actively do their duty and pursue the truth, and live a much more relaxed and liberated life than before. At that moment, I came to have a deeper appreciation of God’s painstaking intention to save people, and I was deeply moved. If God didn’t express the truth and save people, we’d all be fooled and harmed by Satan with no way out. Being able to do my duty in the church was much more meaningful than running a business in the world because preaching the gospel is a work of saving people and it is the most valuable and meaningful thing. In the past, for the sake of my own self-interests, I used to vie with people for fame and gain and scheme against them in the world, becoming malicious and deceitful, and living without any semblance of a human being. Now in the church being able to do meaningful things, as well as eating and drinking God’s words, pursuing the truth and changing my corrupt dispositions while doing my duty, I felt that this was the only meaningful way to live. I thanked God with all my heart.

One day, two years later, when I just got home, my husband persistently tried to persuade me, saying, “You’ve given up being a respected boss. What is all this ‘God’ nonsense? I just know that making money is the most realistic. With money, you can eat well, play well, enjoy life, and other people think highly of you. Who will think anything of you if you have no money? You’re not at the shop, sales have dropped by more than half, and it can’t keep going. If you won’t manage it, then it will close. You’re watching numbly as you bow out and hand our business over to others. You’re being stupid!” I was afraid I’d fall into Satan’s temptation again, so I hurriedly said a silent prayer to God. I thought of how my nonbelieving husband pursued money, fame, and gain and followed Satan whereas I’d chosen to follow God and walk the path of pursuing the truth and being saved. He was asking me to give up doing my duty and return to Satan’s camp. He was trying to harm and ruin me. I couldn’t let him constrain me. Seeing that I wouldn’t budge, he got my aunt and father-in-law over. They all tried to persuade me, “We don’t oppose your faith in God, but you have to run your business! Who thought anything of our family before when we had no money? Now our relatives and friends are all fawning over us—isn’t that because our business is thriving? Do you know how many people envy us and can’t wait for our business to fail? Ours is an old shop, and its reputation has already spread. So many people praise you for your abilities and skills. If you don’t look after the business, our whole family will become poor and no one will look up to us. Is that how you want to live?” I thought of the difficulties in starting the business and how it had grown. Over ten years of blood, sweat and tears, it had been so hard to get to where I was. If I really had to give it up, I’d still be a little reluctant to do it. I then realized that I’d fallen into Satan’s temptation, and I hurriedly prayed to God. I thought of a passage of God’s words that I’d read before: “Yet you persist in seeking dark and evil things, and refuse to loosen your grip on them. What, then, will be your outcome? Have you ever given careful consideration to this? If you were asked to choose again, what then would be your position? Would it still be the former? Would you still bring Me disappointment and wretched sorrow? Would your hearts still possess the sole modicum of warmth? Would you still be unaware of what to do to comfort My heart?” (The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. To Whom Are You Loyal?). God’s questions beat against my heart. I’d read many of God’s words ever since I started believing in God and had understood some truth. I knew how people should live and conduct themselves. Although I’d let go of money, fame and gain over the past two years, the peace and joy I felt deep down couldn’t be measured by such things. I’d been fortunate to hear God’s voice and obtain His salvation; I couldn’t go back to Satan’s camp. So, I calmly said to them, “I put a lot of thought into giving up my career, choosing to believe in God, and doing my duty. God expressing truth and saving people in the last days so that we can escape Satan’s harm and attain God’s salvation is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. All I want to do now is believe in God wholeheartedly and no longer live the life of vying for fame and gain. I hope you can read God’s words more too and accept His salvation.” I was surprised when, as soon as I said this, my aunt and father-in-law waved their hands and shook their heads. My husband said furiously, “We will not believe in God! You must make a choice today. If you want to keep believing in God, then don’t ever come back. You will have nothing to do with this family. You go your way, and I’ll go mine! We’ll go our separate ways!” Seeing him appear so heartless, I said, “I don’t want anything, and I’m set on believing in God.” Once I’d made my choice, my husband conceded and paid me no more mind.

Sometimes I wondered, “Whenever there was a conflict between my duty and my business, I always fell into a dilemma. Why can’t I choose unwaveringly to do my duty and satisfy God? What exactly is the source of this problem?” As I sought the answer, I read that God’s words say: “What does Satan use to keep man firmly within its control? (Fame and gain.) So, Satan uses fame and gain to control man’s thoughts, until all people can think of is fame and gain. They struggle for fame and gain, suffer hardships for fame and gain, endure humiliation for fame and gain, sacrifice everything they have for fame and gain, and they will make any judgment or decision for the sake of fame and gain. In this way, Satan binds people with invisible shackles, and they have neither the strength nor the courage to throw them off. They unknowingly bear these shackles and trudge ever onward with great difficulty. For the sake of this fame and gain, mankind shuns God and betrays Him and becomes increasingly wicked. In this way, therefore, one generation after another is destroyed in the midst of Satan’s fame and gain” (The Word, Vol. 2. On Knowing God. God Himself, the Unique VI). As I pondered God’s words, my heart saw the light. It turns out that fame and gain are means Satan uses to corrupt man. Satan uses fame and gain to control how we think so that we rack our brains, swallow humiliation and bear a heavy load in pursuit of fame and gain, until finally we shun and betray God, and Satan carries us off into hell. I thought about how all I’d pursued for years was fame and gain. Satan’s poisons of “A man leaves his name behind wherever he stays, just as a goose utters its cry wherever it flies” and “Stand out above the rest, and bring honor to your ancestors” had been deeply rooted in me. Ever since I was young, I had admired female entrepreneurs and strong women and hoped to one day become a big name with both fame and gain. I’d regarded money, fame, and gain as my life direction and goals. I’d worked hard all these years to make money, competing with my peers openly and in secret, scheming against each other, undermining and reckoning against each other, always trying to topple each other, and my disposition became increasingly deceitful and malicious. Though exhausted in body and mind, I couldn’t stop pursuing fame and gain, because fame and gain were all the hope of my life, and losing them was for life to lose its meaning. Therefore, seeing my sales drop was like losing my life, and it made me feel terrified. Because I was afraid that the shop would have to close up and that I’d lose people’s admiration, I couldn’t help but do my duty with resistance and in a perfunctory way. I nearly even used my business as an excuse to shirk my duty and go back to Satan’s camp. Fame and gain were like chains that held me so tightly. They became obstacles to my pursuit of the truth and caused me to put off doing my duty and rebel against God again and again. Satan was using precisely fame and gain to corrode and disintegrate my resolve to pursue the truth, stop me from doing my duty, and make me lose my chance to be saved, until finally I’d resist God and be destroyed by God along with it. The means Satan uses to corrupt people are so insidious and malicious! I thought about all the people who got fame and gain and still felt emptiness and pain, who killed themselves to escape it in the end. Fame and gain only bring temporary fleshly enjoyment. They cannot fill the emptiness in one’s heart; they cannot save people, much less give them a beautiful destination. If people don’t come before God and accept His salvation, then no matter how high their prestige or how many assets they have, it’s all totally meaningless.

Later, I read another passage of God’s words: “When people have a genuine understanding of God’s disposition, when they can see that God’s disposition is real, that it is truly holy, and truly righteous, and when they can praise God’s holiness and righteousness from their hearts, then they will truly know God, and they will have gained the truth. Only when people know God do they live in the light. The direct effect of truly knowing God is being able to truly love and submit to God. In people who truly know God, understand the truth, and gain the truth, there is a real change in their worldview and outlook on life, following which, a real change also occurs in their life disposition. When people have the correct life goals, are able to pursue the truth, and comport themselves according to the truth, when they submit absolutely to God and live by His words, when they feel peaceful and illuminated to the depths of their hearts, when their hearts are free of darkness, and when they can live entirely free and unrestrained in God’s presence, only then do they lead genuine human lives, and only then have they become those who possess the truth and humanity. In addition, all the truths that you have understood and gained have come from God’s words and from God Himself. Only when you gain the approval of God Most High—the Creator, and He says that you are a qualified created being who lives out a human likeness, will your life be most meaningful. Having God’s approval means that you have obtained the truth, and that you are someone who possesses the truth and humanity” (The Word, Vol. 3. The Discourses of Christ of the Last Days. How to Know Man’s Nature). I understood from God’s words that being able to pursue the truth and know God, achieve dispositional changes, not being subject to Satan’s harm anymore, and being able to freely worship God is the only life with value and meaning, and this life is commended and blessed by God. Now epidemics, and all kinds of disasters are frequently occurring. Nonbelievers live in a state of panic and unease, feeling that the future is bleak. When epidemics and calamities happen, they despair and feel trapped. Believers like us, however, eat and drink God’s words every day, and under the enlightenment and guidance of God’s words, we come to understand and discern the ways of Satan’s corruption of man and its wicked essence, we’re able to reject Satan and follow God, we have true peace and joy in our hearts, and we actively do our duties and pursue the truth every day, propagating God’s words, bearing witness to His work, and living under His care and protection. This makes us most blessed, something that we can’t swap for any material thing. I came to experience more that there are only two paths in life: One is following Satan, pursuing money, status, fame, and gain, and satisfying the flesh, walking the path of destruction; one is following God, pursuing the truth, doing our duty well, casting off our corrupt dispositions, and walking the path of salvation. There is absolutely no path in between. Time is short and the great catastrophes are already upon us. There is still so much truth I don’t understand. The most important thing now is to cherish every day, pursue the truth in earnest, do my duty well, and live out a true human likeness.

Now, I spend all my time doing my duty in the church, eating and drinking God’s words with brothers and sisters, and my heart is filled with sweetness and joy. Sometimes, I encounter some difficulties when doing my duty and reveal corrupt dispositions, but with the enlightenment and guidance of God’s words and the fellowship and help from brothers and sisters, I’ve come to some understanding of my corrupt dispositions, and I am pursuing to change them. I think this is most meaningful. Although I gave up my career, I’ve come to understand some truth and live with a little human likeness. I’m so thankful to God. I’ll never regret making this choice!